Insecurities spin a person in a myriad of different direction but when bottled down, isolated then examined one will find guilt and fear. In my personal case, I find a guilt for not being good enough which colors itself into fear. This guilt grows into more larger a plant that fruits straying from tasks fit for a soul then more so straying away from any worth while task as there is a sealed trust. It cannot be good enough because the one who is guilty of being not good enough chose it. The decision to go and take on that task becomes certain in its fear of not being good enough to pick, the fear that what if. It can over power certainty if the emotion is too well fed but it has no measurement as it stands nothing to reason. This inspiring guilt one can keep fires up and keeps anything from holding true worth as if it feels worthy then surely there is a fear of not choosing properly. One might be making the wrong decision… because, maybe, they’re not good enough.
This is logically flawed. An option either is or is not a good option. The possibility of a better option always exists, and if one constantly keeps that mindset then one will never be satisfied. So, there is no standard, just a jumping critique.
The most important thing to realize and fully grasp about guilt is that it is a secondary emotion in this sense. The groundwork for one’s perspective is constantly set in their premises, paradigms, expectations and understandings of the world. Guilt is in there. We know we have feet, how we did in high school, who our first love is/was and that affects us ever so slightly when it becomes relevant. So does this base level guilt. It is not the guilt of a specific situation I address here like that of running a red light or stealing at work or cheating on a lover but of disregarded standards.
Guilt is when a standard one upholds is not met. Problematic is such a notion when one does not have a full grasp or respect for their “standards” and even harder is it to release from those without deeply consulting and examining them. It can become an extension of obsessive compulsive disorder where as one is unable to sit still for this unnerving and overpowering peculiar standards. In social exercise one will see guilt as a fear of being caught for their crimes against their own standard or expectation. A tiptoeing around some imaginary line and jumpy nervousness created out of an imaginary law they’re breaking. All of this is superfluous without examination and compelling empathy of one’s standards.
The importance of guilt is to hold a person accountable. We keep ourselves feeling guilty when the laws our own premises’ have stone laid on hard enough to keep us tethered and pulled. The silly idea of one catching us is a constant social eeriness and unrest which has no place. Only relevant to a soul without an understanding of themselves. Poo I say. The alternative is allowing one’s self to be happy.
Issues arise in the guilty, paranoid, obsessive compulsive after they have allowed themselves moments of happiness. This blast of anger and reprise is due to a relinquishing of power from happiness, contentment back to the powers of unobtainable standards. Guilt rushes in the morning after a good night. Here is where a person has found healthy mindset but then they relapse and allow themselves to go back to a life of self-deprecation and pointless, disagreed psychologically dissonant ways. And fuck that noise. A person gets to be happy and if their own standards aren’t understood but are stopping them then they need to disregard those standards and create new ones. This is a key, create new fucking standards and expectations or else the guilt cannot be vanquished.
Curious is the role guilt plays in one’s social face and thereafter their reaction to such. The simple truth about social behavior is that people are mainly concerned with themselves and treat others very directly as they behave. When a person holds themselves like a guilty person, speaks with a tone and speed of doubt as if guilty, and attends content and eye movement as if they have something to hide or be ashamed of then people will rarely look beyond the simple display of one being guilty to further examine the faulty presence of inaccurate guilt and logical fallacy sitting in those other’s premise. They will just treat you like a bear because you’re acting like a bear. Unfortunately for the pain of the cause and the survival of the guilt, this is gold, delicious ambrosia, eden’s feasts brought out for a party that doesn’t have to end. Since the guilt is not immediately apparent or consciously confronted and known the person is more aware of their treatment instead of as to why it is. And we react strongly to other’s treatment when we are self-doubting. So it keeps on going. People treat you like you act, so if they treat you badly then it may not be who you are but the behavior you are exhibiting. Never, ever guilty but always moving forward.
