“I’m telling everybody I’m fine
But behind closed doors
Of what I don’t say
Hurts so much more
I cry all the time
But I seem to always hold those hopeless emotions inside
I try moving forward with a smile on my face
Laughing & joking during the day
Saying I’m okay
But, I’m lying to myself
& those are the thoughts I try to erase
& so I keep those secrets in a secret place
I feel so ashamed with only myself to blame
But, blaming myself will always & forever be my first mistake
Over thinking everything & accepting nothing
Cause when nobody is around
I drown myself in tears
Cause I can’t cry out loud
For them all to hear
Holding on to something so severe
Make up all smeared
Feeling so insecure
I’ve been feeling that for years
I just don’t know what to do
I’m feeling so lost & confused
Not wanting to be bothered or talked too
Cause I never seem to get anything right
But some nights I somehow realize
I’m just a girl living a teenage girl’s life”
