A car crash, a failed paper, three kids all beat up after spray painting somewhere they shouldn’t be and the police only found them after the beaters had vanished. Shit happens in life and while its a funny study examining who responds so wildly to one incident and abstractly to another it remains true that no one event defines a person’s life unless the reader of the story deems it so. Remember that deeming is a process one normally validates without recognizing they do so. In holding one’s self responsible and making one’s self in control of that, one becomes more than a face in a crowd but a live being.
My point, personally, is that nothing can destroy you. Perhaps it can kill you, yes. But you cannot be defeated by just one thing as it is too tiny to compare to your entire story. At the same time, anything can destroy you, if you let it. Powers of the world outside ourself are defined to us by how we react and judge their worth by.A sunset can mean pouring, riveting emotions tearing through new bounds unseen by human eye and without understanding of previous existence! A sunset can be ignored and sappy. The same works with every fucking piece of life. Being aware of this allows both control and temperament over losing control, depression, mania, sadness, trauma, what have you. It is not easy. No words I can spell or string together will adequately do rite for the shame or bliss brought from one’s own emotion becoming outsourced but still a resource. But it is possible, and smaller pieces are much simpler.
There is a scale one can start to rate things on. You can contrast its worth with your reaction to its worth, so I lied; its two scales. And how much do you care that I lied?
What do you care about today that you did, or are going to do? And is that where you want to invest your worth? Very egotistical questions that cause some over self examination if mistreated, solipsism in extreme cases. But in proper doses and appropriation can help you make yourself into the super person this world needs, not just you need.
