Days come and these days are filled with darkness the nights after wouldn’t hold for a murder nor heartbreak. Each passing minute feels as empty as the last and every directions promises nothing. Most filling is wonder, the why do people keep doing this. It is not anger nor depression but a step between that grows stagnant and aches at us without pain but still strangling our desires dry and silent. Sometimes it is longer than just one day and it can come in moments alone. The events that follow are just that, followers of a feeling. To rid one’s self of such a plague one must fill the mind and heart with new fuel.
Emptying the can is important but first lets talk about what to dine on, the filling is much more appetizing. What we want is fulfillment, meaning, worth, but that means nothing!! Just as looking to others for smiles and eagerly attempting to please them without helping ourselves does the same nada. What we want is a thing, an action! No, thats actually lazy trickery we eat up for the eaziest of reasons so the parts of us that are most sensitive don’t burn. We must confront the pain in our hearts, deeper though, in our past and what we define as worthy of calling shame. Find our pride and what makes it glow. What are you ashamed of, and better yet, what SHOULD you be proud of? So often it is our expectations that hold us back. We won’t even look them in the eyes but they are always by our side, helping us judge what is good and what is bad. So look right at them and judge them back. Tell yourself, your beliefs, that you are worth while just for existing and the very fact that you do speak so makes you worth so! Now, what would tickle your fancy that’s been rendered sensitive and realistic to it’s reigns. Ask, imagine, and wish! Let your mind jump to those you think are happy and give yourself their ways until you see the fix. What excites you won’t be old nor another’s head flick. But then again, it could be simple as dancing in the sun. Now that you have found this, let yourself feel this. Bask in it and allow every piece of you to know it and call it righteous. Don’t get cocky, but get acclimated. Here are the shoes you need and from here you can make the right decisions, and only here.
To empty the can, look at all those expectations and shames. From here we dive into pain and hatred upon ourselves, that we failed the world. Imbue the fiend to your mind’s tips and your finger’s reaches. Let it hurt as bad as it can, just feel, don’t do. As it sets and steadies you will feel what it really is. It is fear, wonder, anxiety. Your body’s gut reaction to keep you from hurting yourself again in a likewise fashion of stories old. But thats the damnedest thing, all those stories are over! And tell them so and tell you soul and your body and scream it out the window! That pain has passed and you don’t need to eat shitcake any more. You are free as you let yourself be, let go of the noose.
