This is a small piece to describe a feeling of being completely alive in hopes of keeping the scent touched so one can follow such a trail. Because the greatest things in life are scary. They involve change an overcoming something holding us back otherwise we wouldn’t be looking. To explain this vibe of fear that only the most amazing things give off because they are so brilliant I will go into metaphors and examples with likeness then I will refine that exact feeling and how to imbibe and project it. Once a person accepts their center, it begins to bring more likewise stories to that person.
This is highly abstract because all emotions put into a tangible spotlight are so. The way to make sense of what I am about to tell you is to accept that when you first learn something your culture and your current way or understanding things has no description, archetype, personal construct or relevant point of reference to that we dismiss it as crazy and unintelligible because too much new shit will mess up our “working” world. This has a lot to do with being fine in life which is being stagnant and accepting the oncoming doom of death because that is the beginning of getting old. So look it at with the eyes of a ten year old about the drive a Ferrari. because that would never happen but put yourself in the sort of shock and awe moment. Engage the sort of emotions which seem absurd and so new because they cannot exist. Got it? Good. Remember the first time you feel in love, the way everything was accentuated and saturated with energy. Remember the most amazing thing you did before you were twenty-five. Take the moment it came into focus that you were about to do the incredible. Now focus on the feeling, the vibe of that moment, the importance you gave it. For here is what I’m talking about. The importance of any moment is the importance you gave it. Look at the worth you created in that instance.
This is being fully engaged of your highest form. Or at the least it is engaging in the energy train which your highest form is on board. Real brilliance is shaky because it is that great. Your every sense is tingling as all your being is put into drive. This is not bad or too much for you but everything you’ve got. In a moment where you are completely engaged is a moment you are completely alive. Things seem scary and unknown but you’re clearly blasting on towards it. The fear is there because this is new and hasn’t been done. All the pieces of the evolutionary psyche don’t know how to keep you safe because not enough ancestors died, succeeded, and then fucked those genes into proper place. That’s how great whatever you are doing is. Your imagination is worried that it’s going to lose the upper hand in anticipation and fantasizing limelight because the current is outdoing it. The wind is blasting along side you because you’re riding a new wave that everyone, or so you have perceived it so, has never had the idea to even try something this ridiculous or they were too scared to give it a shot; or both!
Find the newest art form in your favorite practice and out do it’s nuance and innovation. Create a strategy which nobody has ever thought of but the writing from your finger speak that it will work. Make something you doubt because it’s so new that you have no social constructs to compare it’s projected rate of success with. Push down a wall that everyone climbs over, break through a barrier that you don’t need to avoid, write a song for something you feel so strongly that your soul bleeds out lyrics and tunes too loudly to ignore and not put it out for the rest of the world to endure until it makes them beat. This is the real brilliance which every person is constantly capable. Create the momentum in your head and then lock onto it as a standard for attention, focus, importance, reality, and highest law of any land. Most importantly be ready to toss out social flack; society doesn’t like change because society is made by the opposite.
Let the next moment be the piece that could destroy the world you know and feel comfortable in. Real change is that which has things you have never done so you will be scared. Real greatness is difficult and precarious just as tight-rope walking between zeppelins, takes each step being precise and vigorously powerful. Real greatness is blasting forward such that it seems impossible because its different from your normal day; even if you become great that greatness turns into normal which the human mind qualifies with sensory acclimation so it will feel not great and you gotta push on. Make this atmosphere and headspace be your goal and standard that only you can fulfill in every moment and then your life’s actions must be of some higher echelon. That higher state of expectation, engaged focus, and momentum will make you see only possibilities that admit greatness or you will seek and find them. This is why greatness is shaky, because it takes everything you’ve got and turns it up full frontal. It’s being alive to full activation.
