I have been pondering how does one keep in mind the highest self they have. A feeling of being pleased with one’s self, content in their own shoes but still able to receive criticism and pondering it pragmatically and applicably. Being cocky is the only way in this world to do anything new and be a member of the social reality formed in a sane homeostasis. The crazies have it easier to make lunges forward but fitting in and social fluency hold a person back something awful. Yet being confident the ability to do something no one has ever done requires a backing seemingly unrealistic because of faith in the goodness of current life. So how does one create the mindset where they can feel empowered in whom they are yet still hold large room for critique that they can actually accept. Not the megalomanic, sociopath whom laughs and is unbothered by such flaw finding but one whom enjoys finding problems of themselves and in their plans as they lead to better plans and a better self. And with accurate use of guilt and humility? The answer is faith and fondness of improvement with enjoyment for the simple things of one’s self instead of indulgence and overdosing the ego with illogical concepts that high amounts of dopamine and oxytocin enjoy employing.
When we get really happy we tend to dismiss the existence of anything bad happening. We do this with the words and idea ,”forever” or start masturbating on the top of an imaginary hierarchy that we’ve found the only top of; the “greatest ever” crap kiss line. This is where one goes from being fantastic to being fanatic. And this is why we feel that emotion that the rug is about to be pulled from under us, due to our total emersion in an over-indulgent pleasure center when we need to have more feet on the ground in order to be a real boy. Pinnochio and Mr. Pan come together in our mind’s believes to be surely drowned along with us. Mark this point and know it is silly but do not jump to dismissing the happiness entirely. Find the point right before the stupid set it. That is the fence where this mentality lays.
Having tasted the stupid drug of over-indulgence, through TV or movies or our own ideas, we now see that as the high point from a chemical standpoint. Our body wants that high. If you have done cocaine or heroine then your body now wants that even if you knowledgeably decline and dislike them. The way to dissolve this issue is to enjoy the simple. Each piece of reality is light. Everything is made of atoms, of star stuff, it exists. And there is non-existence… and that doesn’t necessarily suck elephant testicles but when things are really real, man is that awesome. Such a line sounds like some pied-pipers tune that only children would dance to. And that’s just what it is. The brilliance of simplicity and existing is something people forget because we learn, our bodies are chemically taught, there is a better high out there. But the knowledge of existence is blissful and enjoying something for being good today when we had nothing the day before lessens none from finding an even better on the next coming saturday. The greatness exists, once someone acknowledges that simple truth, that someone has trumped aging. Being able to enjoy yourself for your great deeds or happiness or simple existence is a constant option and one must find solace in that before we can find stability in our selves. The alternative option is not keep growing but to keep fiend-ing and living in self-loath. Enjoy existing, it is quite sublime.
The last step is the only step, it just needs a solid ground to walk on. Enjoy improving. Take pride in getting better. See it as a higher prize than winning. If you are victorious, you are not necessarily improving and there’s a good chance the victory is meaningless. Being better is always better than being the best. When someone corrects you, do not take it as an attack or challenge but an intellectual moment, a discussion to bring forth new strategies and information of life. Being intimidated is a symptom of being scared, unsure. Dismiss that and take in the frame that nobody is attacking but that life is a game to be played with a field always changing and bigger than the players. Enjoy the field.
